My ultimate fantasy, Pretoria – 45

I will try to put into words what I'm craving for and what my ultimate fantasy entails, and hopefully there is someone out there who shares the fantasy and can make it a reality.

I'm a straight/curious white male, 45 years old, 1.8m, 67kg, brown hair and eyes. I want to surrender control to a dominant man (women and couples also welcome) and be emasculated and feminised and sissified.

I crave the feeling of having no control, only obeying rules and following orders, to be a mindless puppet. This can all start online via email or telegram and develop into real life meetings.

In my fantasy I fantasize about being humiliated and degraded as a man, being referred to as a bitch, slut or faggot, being reminded that Im an excuse for a man and unable to satisfy any woman. Also to be reminded that my purpose is to serve and get used by men, real men.

Being made to buy panties and thongs to wear instead of my male underwear, and to be reminded that I have a clit (to be tucked away in tiny panties) and a pussy. Being ordered to act like a girl, only sitting down to pee, not been allowed to masturbate, being sent sissy hypno and brainwash videos to watch and be given assignments and orders to complete. Being given a new female name, my new identity.

I also fantasize about face to face meetings - to be told where and when to be at a specific time and what to wear. Perhaps a Mcdonalds or other restaurant, sitting nervously at a table, dressed as a man but wearing tight panties and a bra underneath. Once you've arrived, being ordered to go into the restroom, which I do. Moments later you arrive and lock the door behind us. As I'm standing nervously in the corner with the wall behind my back, you slowly walk towards me, look down at my crotch area, no bulge present as my clit is tucked away, feeling your hands feel my up and making my touch your bulge, feeling what it feels like being a girl, the first time touching a man's cock and balls.

This can be an introduction meeting with the next meetings at your place. Arriving dressed as a man, then being shown to the bathroom where I will dress up as a girl. Tight panties or thong, bra, thigh high stockings, perfume and lipgloss. Walking out towards you, following your instructions of acting feminine and girly. Standing in front of you, feeling your eyes on me, submissive and ready to be used by you.

Being made to kneel in front of you, your crotch centimeters from my face, feeling my heart beating fast. Obeying your orders to touch you through your pants, stroke over and kiss your bulge, awaiting further instructions.

With trembling hands being made to unbuckle your belt and undo your pants, the first time ever undressing a man. Unzipping your pants and pulling them down, then the same with your underwear. Being made to lick and suck your balls before taking your cock in my mouth, my hands either behind my back or placed on your upper thighs. Feeling your cock grow hard in my mouth and feeling your hands behind my head as you slowly start fucking my mouth until you explode in my mouth. Letting your cock empty its full load in my mouth, feeling like a slut, making a man cum with my mouth, and then swallowing. Him being hard and erect while I'm small and limp, tucked away in panties.

I'm 100% serious about this and looking for someone who is into this and can make this a reality. Ideally this can be an ongoing thing and not just once off. Looking for someone who is openminded, kinky, in charge and creative. Someone who can write a message longer than one sentence. I dont care how old you are, but you should be white, clean and be able to host. I am married and my wife doesnt know about this part of me, therefore need to be discreet. The first meeting will be me as the innocent, shy virgin girl, experiencing her first cock. Further meetings can be different, perhaps the naughty stepdaughter getting spanked over daddys lap, or the slutty stepdaughter going into daddys room while he is sleeping and sucking his cock.

If you are interested in owning me and to do this with me, please contact me.